I wasn’t sure what to name this one. I knew what I wanted to talk about but what is it we are leading here? A sexual Secret life, or vice versa? Do they mean the same thing? And why is it all such a secret,anyway?
Secrets are born out of fear, fear of being misunderstood, or hurting someone we love, fear of not fitting in, of something being wrong with us. Fear of being different. And as we all know, difference can get you killed. Or at least hurt. Social death can be the worst, the murder of your pride and self esteem by millions of tiny stinging scornful remarks. And when you understand that your difference is SEXUAL? God have mercy, because your fellow humans won’t.
One of my callers over the years told me that he’d not been calling because he had been attacked for crossdressing in public. One tiny public errand, late at night, ended in his being beaten by strangers. Because womens clothes are so frightening? Fuck that. How many of those fantasies confessed to us are done so with reddened ears and trembling fingers? Yes, by now that little thrill of taboo and shame is part of the pleasure, but was it always? Strokers who love masturbating know that heart in the throat moment when they hear that footstep outside the door, they have their cocks in hand and their pants are halfway across the room. CAUGHT! SHAME! PUNISHMENT!
I’ve felt it too. Until I grew old enough and had enough life experience to know that “they” aren’t always right. Especially when it comes to sex. I’m not ashamed of the things that make me gasp and moan anymore. I can share my fantasies with my intimate partners and expect them to accept me as I am, even if they don’t share my personal kinks. DON’T BE ASHAMED!! My wonderful callers, OUR wonderful callers. Our sissies and crossdressers and transgendered callers, YOU ARE NOT BAD! Stroke boys and wankers and jerkoff sluts- IT FEELS GO GOOD FOR A REASON! Teenie weenies and painsluts and humiliation lovers -THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! Fantasies enrich your imagination and your sex life and what an consenting adult chooses to do with his or her body is GLORIOUSLY SEXY!
Even if, for your own private reasons, you never tell your mom. Discretion isn’t about hiding, it’s about the right to privacy, and you have that right too. (I ain’t talking about my sex life with MY mom!!) ::big grin::
GROUP HUG!!
Miss Tara
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It’s one thing to know in your heart that it really isn’t wrong or something to be ashamed of to be different or to have different kinks than mainstream society. But after having it shoved down your throat as “wrong” from the time you’re very young, it’s not so easy to just say “fuck this shit” and live your life without worrying what people think. Some people are able to do that and I envy them for it, but it’s not easy for me. It takes a concerted effort for me to throw the weight off and do certain things that make me happy.
The worst part about it is that you can be physically harmed by ignorant people who pass judgement and consider themselves justified to be judge and jury. It’s like being held hostage by people who probably understand less about life than you yourself do.
Not sure if any of that made sense, but it was a good exercise to write it… lol.
Psssst! Miss Tara! I promise I won’t ever tell Your Mom!
jemmie
You’re absolutely right about other people being able to control your life to an extent through fear of violence. Sweetie, I would never minimalize that need to be careful and safe, and I didn’t intend to with that “fuck it!”. I meant to be saying “fuck their self righteous bullshit. Fuck those people who hurt and hate because they don’t approve. They’re a boil on the ass of humanity and it sucks to have to worry about what they think.”
It was more frustration than a call to dress publically and defy them. No one should do more than they feel safe doing, that’s part of the right to privacy too. But, try to believe that YOU are the wonderful articulate fun feminine creature you are to us!!
Thanks for not ratting me out to the momster!!
Miss Tara
Miss Tara! I hope You didn’t get the impression that I was taking issue with what You said, I agree with You and was really just trying to add some of my own observations to what You said.
And thank You so much for the sweet compliment, and I’ll try to take Your advice!
jemmie
Bravo, Ms Tara. Bravo.
Awww Miss Tara, I have to tell you, it is kinda fun coming “out of the closet” with your parents. lmao The look of shock…its priceless!!! ::giggles:: But fully understand why you are not….I choose not to tell the full world either. I pick and choose.
Have a great time with Mom!!